The step ladder

It was an evening right before going to church, while I stared distractedly into the mirror combing my hair, that my gaze suddenly fell upon a step ladder. There it was on the opposite side of the room resting heavily on top of a beautiful cupboard. It brought a smile to my face.

Psalm 119:37 – Turn away my eyes from looking at vanity, And revive me in Your ways.

The step ladder.

It was only months ago that we had moved into a new apartment. A bigger and more beautiful house the Lord has blessed us with. It is everything our family has dreamed of. A spacious colony buzzing with residents and ample activities to not make you feel too bored or isolated in your old age. The recently renovated apartment is beautifully designed with high quality woodwork and well thought out interiors.

Most of all, I was in love with my room. The room with a view. It stares right into a beautiful river with coconut tress in the background.  Two cute cupboards, one complete with sliding mirror doors. A gorgeous dressing table, a clean and modern bathroom.

I was very particular about MY ROOM. From the kind of furniture we were getting to how it would be placed. It had to be clean, neat and basically MY WAY.

Ecclesiastes 5:10 – He who loves money will not be satisfied with money, nor he who loves abundance with its income. This too is vanity.

Fast forward a few months and you can picture this scene: I return home after venturing out for a chore and voila, the first thing I find upon entering my room is the step ladder. There it is, ugly as hell, in all its metallic glory (or gory!), grey and just full of steps. A utility item that was an immediate eyesore.

It is so instantaneous. Feeling your blood boil and rush around your veins while you struggle with your emotions. A short tempered person will get what I am talking about. For those of you blessed with calm nerves, be glad you have never felt this uncontrollable burst of anger. But as for me, it was a part of life. As a colleague recently put it, I was always sitting on a hot tava (frying pan).

But how could I let a STEP LADDER!! spoil the look of my beautiful room. How could I let that piece of metal ruin it ALL. Yes, it just took a medium sized step ladder to spoil my day, to take over my mind and emotions.

Psalm 31:6 – I hate those who regard vain idols, But I trust in the LORD.

Mommmmm! I called out with a sense of urgency one would relate to an emergency. Neither did I attempt to hide my anger. The moment she came in, I let it out. Ah, how good it felt. An angry, obnoxious, selfish rant.

“My room CANNOT be a store room. You HAVE TO take this out immediately. It is killing me to look at it”

Wow. My words may not have been the same, but in effect, they were the same. This is exactly how I felt. My poor mom said, okay.

Proverbs 29:11 – A fool always loses his temper, But a wise man holds it back.

Fast forward a few months and the step ladder is back! This time it was under my bed and although more concealed, I could see its reflection in the mirrored cupboard.

Consequence – Same outburst as last time.

James 1:20 – For the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God.

How many times do we allow our feelings (and that too for the silliest matter) rule our days and consequently our lives. I was letting my feelings rule my seconds, my minutes and my hours and days. I could never ever be practical. What mattered was HOW I FELT.

The world today gives so much importance to FEELINGS. In fact that is all anyone cares about anymore. How I feel, How I made you feel, How I could have made you feel etc etc. You got the drift.

So how do you get rid of this FEELING? Have you tried Jesus? Have you tried being a REAL CHRISTian?

Philippians 4:7 – And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

If Christ is in you, if you are walking with Christ, you will know what I am talking about.

You were sent here for a purpose. You are an ambassador of Christianity and yet you wonder how?

Challenge yourself. Even if for a week. Try living the selflessly meek life, a deliberate one and see if it gives you a different sense of livelihood, a sense of joy, a sense of fulfillment, a sense of being in spirit. .

When you FEEL bad, get rid of that feeling and instead put Christ first. You will know the difference.

It is difficult to lead a disciplined Christian life, but not impossible. I fail at times and so will anyone else, but we have to keep standing up every time we fall, we have to keep moving on and keep striving and never let things just be.

Romans 8:6 – For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace

Meanwhile the step ladder is back on top of the cupboard and I am happily oblivious to its presence 🙂

Even the little things matter

But the Holy Spirit said, HAVE FAITH.

So yesterday I thought to myself – weekend is here and I have to blog, but what will I write about? I decided to wait and let the message come to me.

Lo and behold, within an hour, I had an answer. Here’s what it was…

Having to attend a wedding on Monday, I had already planned to bunk work, calling in sick – the absolutely normal thing to do in my past. My boss is stingy when it comes to leave allotment and most of my colleagues have learnt that it is futile to ask her for any. So the best thing to do is call in sick.

I am sure many workers do this. Most of us are not really sick during our ‘sick leaves’.  It saves you arguments, ego, and a whole lot of other ‘pain’ that we feel comes along with telling the truth.

Proverbs 12:19 -Truthful lips endure forever, but a lying tongue is but for a moment.

Now in my new life as a Christian, I never for a moment thought that this would be a big deal. You know how you think you are good as long as you don’t commit the big sins (murder, stealing, adultery, abuse, addictions etc etc). Of course, I have moved beyond that in my re-birth and realized that even the small ones matter and have learnt the importance of being loving, kind and patient in my day to day life.

Now, in my daily prayer or personal time with God, I always pray that he would give me the strength to fight temptations (do not lead us into temptation) that come in the form of, anger, frustrations, cribbing, laziness, judging others, greed, selfishness, pride, arrogance, ego, etc.

At the same time, I have also been praying to the Lord that he will lead me on the right path, that he will open my eyes and not let me go astray, that he would SHOW ME/TELL ME if I am moving in the wrong direction.

I asked God to talk to me.

While praying this yesterday, I suddenly (in the middle of my prayer) remembered that I need to call in sick on Monday and right then, I had the Holy Spirit tell me, ‘No, you are not going to do that. You are going to tell the truth. Because you are going to do the RIGHT THING’.

And of course, I (in the flesh) came up with excuses (but she will not agree, but I will have to call her for that, but it could end up in an argument, a small lie like this shouldn’t matter, is this even a BIG DEAL?, do I have to do this?). Mostly, I just wanted to avoid a conversation with my boss, because why bother when there is an easy way out – instead all I have to do is message her on Sunday night, that I am sick.

But the Holy Spirit said, HAVE FAITH.

Point is, you don’t have to do the wrong thing to get the desired result. You can do the right thing and get what you want, if not now, definitely later.

Ephesians 4:25 -Therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another.

HAVE FAITH that you will not lose out by being on the side of truth, on the side of love, on the side of patience, on the side of hard work, on the side of kindness,  on the side of generosity, on the side of peace or to put that all into one sentence, on the side of JESUS!

Jesus is in me and he can be in you! Walk with Christ. Every thought, word and action should be worthy of Christ. Don’t let him down. He died for your sins so that you may enjoy life. He wants you to enjoy your life but praise him, follow him AND remember him at all times.


Now, sure, if I had lied, I would have gotten my leave, attended my friend’s wedding and just gone back to work. But is that what a Born Again wants to do? Am I not the one who otherwise tells everyone, Jesus is here, don’t worry, do all you can (the right thing) and cast your care. Have faith. How easy it is to say this. But do we practice it?

Sadly, the very few can answer ‘yes’.

No, I don’t want to keep adding to my closet of sins or to my closet of shortcomings. Sure, God forgives. But does that mean I go about living without a conscience?

2 Timothy 2:15 – Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly handling the word of truth.

So, here’s how the situation played out. Bracing myself for whatever outcome, (I boldly thought, Yes I HAVE FAITH), I called her up and said I have a wedding that I definitely have to attend.

Any guess on how she reacted? 🙂

This is why, I will sing forever, JESUS IS HERE. I don’t need this proof of faith to have faith, but here’s what I got out of this whole situation when I allowed myself to be led by the Spirit and not the flesh.

  1. I feel amazing that I am working half day on Monday, and not losing out on a whole day’s pay.
  2. I can contribute and help my colleague who would otherwise have had to deal with the whole load by herself. (How often I pray to the Lord to make me a blessing. This is how he answers).
  3. I still get to wrap up work with enough time left to get ready for the wedding and so everything works out perfectly.
  4. Most importantly, I told the truth and have NO GUILT. Life is more beautiful and simple.
  5. I found the answer to what I should blog this week and hence was ablse to share this message

Praise the Lord?  PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!

Ephesians 1:5 – Let us praise God for his glorious grace, for the free gift he gave us in his dear Son!

Today, not tomorrow

I am not sure, if my blog, makes sense, but I KNOW it will make a difference one day to someone


Hello to anyone 🙂 I am quite excited as I write my first post here. All of this is happening only because of God Almighty. It is sort of difficult to decide where and how to begin but begin we must!

Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

I was born a Christian but never a Christian until I was born again. And now, I am a Christian by faith, not just birth. My life has turned around completely and I want to share the lesson I learnt as well as my happiness with just about anyone. I can confidently say I am the happiest person you will ever come across, because (and now let the following words sink in – for if not now, they will later) Jesus is here 🙂

2 Corinthians 5:17 – Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

And in the time that I wrote the above two paragraphs, I also decided that I would dive right in and explain why I started this blog today and not tomorrow. There is so much to share, from how Jesus came into my life and how much my life has changed, but for that, there is a future 🙂

Ezekiel 36:26 – And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

So today is a Sunday, the day of rest, the day of worship, the seventh day of creation, the day God decided to rest. After several years of working in the field of journalism, I finally have my off days on weekends which means I can rest on Sunday.

Genesis 2:2-3 – By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work.

The idea to start a blog to spread God’s word was born very soon after I received salvation. It was not a pressing matter, but by the time this weekend was approaching, I knew it was time.

Ephesians 4:22-24 – To put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.

So I wake up in the morning, all bubbly and chirpy, just like every other day, because Jesus is here and something good is going TO happen to me and something good is going to happen THROUGH me. (which reminds me to mention – I follow the teachings of a Christian speaker called Joyce Meyer and hence a lot of what I have to say is also influenced by her teachings as long as I KNOW they are right or rather anointed).

Psalms 95:6 – Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the LORD, our Maker!

So first thing I do is make myself a cup of tea and switch on my laptop. The plan was to start off by watching Joyce’s teachings online. (I just arrived last evening at my ancestral home to spend a week with my dog. There is no one home and this is the place I received my salvation. Having had a busy month of travelling for work, focusing on fitness and spending time with my family, I was looking forward to coming back to this house for the simple reason that I wanted to spend more time learning about Christ and worshiping him).

Psalms 99:5 – Exalt the LORD our God; worship at his footstool! Holy is he!

However, an idea or rather a temptation to plan a luxurious holiday over an already planned holiday, was on top of my mind and as the Devil would love it, I logged on to a few travel and holiday sites, thus giving in to my flesh. Surely, there is no harm in that. But then what followed?

All the while, I sipped my cup of tea and kept researching and planning (oh, how I used to love to do that) God kept telling me – ‘but you wanted to spend more time on me.’ Before I knew, I had spent more time than I thought I would and had as a result, delayed my original plan of having breakfast, doing laundry, bathing my dog etc etc etc. Also on my list of To Do was mailing someone, responding to a request and starting this blog.

Matthew 26:41 – Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

The point is, the EARLIER ME would have kept on giving in to my temptation, and ended up not doing any chores. It would have been a wasted day and I would have, at the end of it ,gone into deep regret mode and consequently feeling miserable about myself. This blog would not have happened right now either.

The NEW ME, the Christian me, heard God speaking and although slightly late in today’s scenario, did do what is RIGHT and not what I FELT like doing. It is difficult to explain God’s role in your day to day life but as I share more examples and the whole story behind my change, you will figure out what I mean.

Galatians 6:9 – Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.

Sure, a motivational speaker, someone who is an anti-procrastinator or the guru of To Do Things Right Now, would say that this is nothing but your will.

Trust me, I have on innumerable occasions, chosen to do the right thing because you know, I have to be good and right and not be a procrastinator, but eventually, slipped back to what I FEEL like doing.

The point is, you can turn your life around, no matter what your circumstances, by a complete renewal of your mind, ONLY THROUGH CHRIST. And I mean, literally, no matter what your circumstances.

I am not sure, if my blog, makes sense, but I KNOW it will make a difference one day to someone, because I mean RIGHT and am led by the spirit not by the flesh.

Colossians 3:17 – And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.